Matt

Matt.
I can't sleep.
We've been to hell and back. Honestly if a relationship could go worse in the first four months, I don't know how...
Yet under the worst of circumstances, I suppose I fell in love.
I did. I fell in love with you. With the way you take care of me. With your smile. With your pathetic jokes and how every time I say "Guess what?" You say "Chicken Butt?", even though you know that's not it. I love the little things. How well you know me. How when you made me dinner, you cut the crust off my bread because you know I don't like it. The fact that you'll surprise me and drive me an hour and a half to my favorite ice cream place. That you will hold me while I cry and tell me it's all okay.
You really have stood by me through it all. I don't know how we've managed to keep this relationship going through everything we've been through, but together we're strong. Together we're unstoppable.
I don't know how long this will last, if you're going to leave and join the military, or if we're always going to be like this. All I know is that I think you're wonderful. I can't imagine these past few months without you. I don't know how I could have done it.
Thank you so much, for being you. You are amazing. I love you.

My Girls

Elizabeth Alexandria Smith

Rachel Ann Jones

Emily Elizabeth Ferrari

Alison Leigh Boring


Sometimes we fight. Sometimes we don't get along. Sometimes, we're bitches. Sometimes we're not there for each other when we need to be. Sometimes we say the wrong things. Sometimes, we say the right thing at the wrong time. Sometimes we talk behind each other's backs. Sometimes we don't know what to say, how to help. Sometimes it's hard to forgive each other and move on.

But always and forever, we will care about each other. Always and no matter what, if one of us truly needed the others, we would all be there.
These girls are my support, my backbone, my strength. These girls have held me when I cried and picked me up at 2 a.m to support me. These girls have said "I don't know what to say, but you're strong and you can do this." when I didn't know how I would. These girls have drawn me pictures and written me letters to encourage me. They've stayed on the phone all night with me.
No matter what shit we go through. No matter who says what. No matter how hard it is to keep our friendships going.
Ladies, you are my forever friends, my bosom buddies, my best friends. My soul mates in friendship form.

Thank you for everything. I know I don't say that enough. Thank you for being there.