Lately I've been thinking about how much I love Tyler. Yes, love. Teenage love. I think it exists, but, I am a teenager afterall. Tyler and I have been together for 13 mo straight / 19 mo total, and I know a year is nothing compared to couples married for 50, 60 years, but I can't imagine being with anyone else but him. Not even when I didn't get to talk to him for 12 days. No one else seems right, no one else seems to fit, and I have no desire to look for anyone else.
Maybe someday this will end. Maybe someday he'll be a story I tell my children, my children with someone else. Maybe someday this will all be memories, memories of my first love. But for now, it's amazing, its wonderful, it feels great. For now I'm content knowing tomorrow his locker will be next to mine and we'll hold hands. For now it's nice to know that he's there to listen to me and hold me. That we love eachother like nothing else. The possibility that we maybe, someday will be forever, lurking on the horizon will be ignored for now. The possibility that someday we will be with other people, completely ignored for today. For now I'm satisfied to be in love. I'm happy where I am, and I wouldn't change it for the world.
"If I could turn back time, I'd choose you all over again."