I can't sleep.
We've been to hell and back. Honestly if a relationship could go worse in the first four months, I don't know how...
Yet under the worst of circumstances, I suppose I fell in love.
I did. I fell in love with you. With the way you take care of me. With your smile. With your pathetic jokes and how every time I say "Guess what?" You say "Chicken Butt?", even though you know that's not it. I love the little things. How well you know me. How when you made me dinner, you cut the crust off my bread because you know I don't like it. The fact that you'll surprise me and drive me an hour and a half to my favorite ice cream place. That you will hold me while I cry and tell me it's all okay.
You really have stood by me through it all. I don't know how we've managed to keep this relationship going through everything we've been through, but together we're strong. Together we're unstoppable.
I don't know how long this will last, if you're going to leave and join the military, or if we're always going to be like this. All I know is that I think you're wonderful. I can't imagine these past few months without you. I don't know how I could have done it.
Thank you so much, for being you. You are amazing. I love you.